..::CHP::..: September 2013

Same Love

Note: this blog post is not about fashion

So I proposed to my boyfriend yesterday, after having fought with myself over and over about it. I don't know why it was so hard for me to do the one thing that would make me the happiest. Perhaps it was past experiences, perhaps I believed it was too soon and I was rushing, or perhaps I just wasn't completely confident in myself and how well I would be able to handle an engagement.

So I planned this romantic evening, my daughter and I both picked out a beautiful place where we were going to be served (roleplay). But of course, according to Murphy's law, anything bad that can happen will happen. The sim was messed up, and I kept crashing, I started seeing Ethan(my boyfriend) offline even though he was online and he could not see the messages I sent him. So...needless to say the reservation was wasted, and I was about ready to give up.

I was already scared and nervous enough without all the secondlife issues, so I was just going to wait to do it a different day. Around that time, I was called to my restaurant because we had some random customers come in( GO FIGURE RIGHT???!!!). I went to serve them, but was too laggy from all my secondlife issues to even move. I called my manager Dani in for back up because at this point I was pissed off and ready to go to bed. I was pretty sure nothing good could happen that night(and all along it was also my daughter's birthday)

But then i stepped outside the restaurant(on my sim) and just stood there for a moment and though to myself....

Is my anger, frustration and fear going to win tonight? Am I really going to postpone the most important decision of my life because everything was trying to hold me back? I was pretty sure Ethan did not care if I proposed in some fancy place or not, and I was pretty sure that I couldn't wait any longer. So my daughter got dressed, and I TPED the love of my life to the gazebo behind my own restaurant, knelt down on my knee and proposed despite my growing anxiety and anger towards secondlife.

When he said yes, everything else no longer mattered. The hell I had gone through all day just trying to ask one simple question all melted away and was forgotten within the instant. I had never been more happy in my entire life, and it was worth every bit of the bumps on the way.

Just goes to show, good things can come out of persistence and never giving up. If you give up, you might miss the best thing that could ever happen to you, the thing that makes everything else worthwhile.